happy birthday singpooore!
haha well good job today guys in any case at least the performance is out of the way! yess. ALL THE BEST FOR H1 OKAY GUYS! study hard!!!! (oh gosh i'm so hypocritical hahaha)
um well today i spoke to mr peh again and he's really really nice to take the time to explain to me, and i persisted till i think i pissed him off or sth ahah sorry! but neh i can't join band. ayia i'm just so tired and confused cause ya the whole year my decisions have not been working out. i've not been able to see them through. which is sooo not good for someone like me who's already so indecisive. i'm totally thrown offboard. so yeah can't join band. can't join dance. and i'm still pondering if it's wise of me to stay in choir. okay fine not wise, but rather what would be the best decision, taking into consideration my other aspirations. or rather foolish dreams. in the end i went ahead to talk to mr tay my conductor to tell him i wanted to quit. i had in mind to take jazz dance and learn the sax or sth on my own outside of school. and just take it that i'm preparing myself to try to join band next year as a motivation. to challenge myself to see what i can do. not that i think i'm so great or that i'm selfish enough to expect the band to accept me. but yeah just a little dream to base my actions on la if you get what i mean. ummm but heh knowing me i never get anything done cause my biggest problem is spasticly thinking too much and not just going out there and doing it. I SUCK. so yeah. i hope i will make a change for once. mr tay is such a respectable guy i feel so bad telling him i wanna quit. and i always get so confused as to whether i want to quit cause of him. but yeah ultimately he puts the decision in my own (terrible) hands. the rest is just getting miss ng to settle red tape logistics whatever(miss ng'd NEVER let me go. but if mr tay says so i'm very certain she can't do anything.)
in any case this should be the last time i bring this problem up. i've been messing the people around me up too much. it's very very unfair to them. but i think i'm just gonna do it and not look back (whimper...) i worry i'll miss being in a choir and miss having a real cca a lot though. i know i will la. it'll be so weird to have nothing to do after school hahah. oh but me and sharlene do want to like start some accapella/jam band group. like sth that fuses jazz, rock (whoo my lovely acid jazz and alternative indie), and CHORAL together. since we love choral pieces. well at least some of them hahaha. ah yeah speaking of which this is kinda why i wanna know what it's like being in a band. cause i've come to love the emsemble of choir and choral pieces that i do. so imagine what it's like to be in a great band. probably sooo much more amazing creating an even bigger more complete, varied sound.
arghhhhhhhhh. byeeezzzz.
um well today i spoke to mr peh again and he's really really nice to take the time to explain to me, and i persisted till i think i pissed him off or sth ahah sorry! but neh i can't join band. ayia i'm just so tired and confused cause ya the whole year my decisions have not been working out. i've not been able to see them through. which is sooo not good for someone like me who's already so indecisive. i'm totally thrown offboard. so yeah can't join band. can't join dance. and i'm still pondering if it's wise of me to stay in choir. okay fine not wise, but rather what would be the best decision, taking into consideration my other aspirations. or rather foolish dreams. in the end i went ahead to talk to mr tay my conductor to tell him i wanted to quit. i had in mind to take jazz dance and learn the sax or sth on my own outside of school. and just take it that i'm preparing myself to try to join band next year as a motivation. to challenge myself to see what i can do. not that i think i'm so great or that i'm selfish enough to expect the band to accept me. but yeah just a little dream to base my actions on la if you get what i mean. ummm but heh knowing me i never get anything done cause my biggest problem is spasticly thinking too much and not just going out there and doing it. I SUCK. so yeah. i hope i will make a change for once. mr tay is such a respectable guy i feel so bad telling him i wanna quit. and i always get so confused as to whether i want to quit cause of him. but yeah ultimately he puts the decision in my own (terrible) hands. the rest is just getting miss ng to settle red tape logistics whatever(miss ng'd NEVER let me go. but if mr tay says so i'm very certain she can't do anything.)
in any case this should be the last time i bring this problem up. i've been messing the people around me up too much. it's very very unfair to them. but i think i'm just gonna do it and not look back (whimper...) i worry i'll miss being in a choir and miss having a real cca a lot though. i know i will la. it'll be so weird to have nothing to do after school hahah. oh but me and sharlene do want to like start some accapella/jam band group. like sth that fuses jazz, rock (whoo my lovely acid jazz and alternative indie), and CHORAL together. since we love choral pieces. well at least some of them hahaha. ah yeah speaking of which this is kinda why i wanna know what it's like being in a band. cause i've come to love the emsemble of choir and choral pieces that i do. so imagine what it's like to be in a great band. probably sooo much more amazing creating an even bigger more complete, varied sound.
arghhhhhhhhh. byeeezzzz.
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