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heyheyhey a2! i'm posting for the sake of un-deadifying this blog. just to let you know i'm listening to runaway by jamiroquai right now. mmm i love music. i love SAJC BAND! whooo moulin rouge pirates and copacabana are soooo nice when they play it. i love listening to the songs live cause you can pick out all these harmonies that are wayyy harder to hear on a cd soundtrack. music comes aliveeee! sigh bandddd. homemakers sucks lor! not the people i emphasize once again, but the teachers and the rigidity of the structure in a school set up. I WANT FREEDOM. i might get my future ruined by saying this, but i don't really like our principal. i'm sure she's nice, but the way she thinks.... meh it's not the best for a jc environment. she's trying to be a granny to us or sth but she doesn't understand us. okayyy digressing!!! is that how you spell it?
choir sucks too. i wish i were in a cca i liked so much i wouldn't care how much time i spent on it. like art or sth. i made the funny mistake of sitting at the choir booth this morning to talk to my friends, then MISS NG came over. and proclaimed! (something along the lines of) "i'm glad to see you're back!" ARGHHHH!!! noooooooooo....so i tried to worm my way out by saying i didn't even think i was going to get promoted, and i needed to spend all my waking hours on art. instead she kinda put on this serious face and said she'll do sth to make sure i'll get promoted. WAHHH. piang ah. she's messing with me again! she's nice sometimes la, but i know she's really trying to tie me up. sigh. even mr tay has been asking where i've been? my conductor who said i could leave if i wanted to? as you can see my life is full of people trying to work reverse psycology on me. and i'm so nice they usually succeed. ha. ha.
now i'm listening to how soon is now by tatu. my favourite angsty song to listnen to when i'm feeling depressed. but today for open house i was curating the j2s coursework in the basement for most of my 9 hours in school. and one of their pieces had quotes as a part of it. pretty funny cool ones. in the style of jenny holtzer's truisms (she did an opening piece for the biennale. cool right!) here's an example (from the j2's piece not jenny holtzer's) "ugly people should be happy. they can't get any worse" hoooooo. so let's all be happy! some others are really true. like sth about how love doesn't die naturally, but it's cause we don't know how to replenish it's source. i soooo agree with that. it's the cause of a million failed marriages. well there was this other quote that didn't make me feel very happy, but it's true too and that's why although i feel like being sorely depressed right now i'm trying not to.
cause according to the quote, no one really cares. and why should they? no one can truely understand what anyone else goes through. so be happy. it's better for your life. when i was distressed by cca trauma this morning i told myself that i shouldn't. i need to change my mindset cause i'm only doing myself and others a disservice by being so whiney and negative. my WHOLE church is doing bible studies on the book a purpose driven life, and i realised how important it is to fill that hole in your heart. it makes living everyday so much easier. why should i complain about all these things when i have a purpose in God and i should live my life the way He wants me to? my HUGE problem is i'm so dreamy. always falling in love with this and that. music, art, johhny depp(haha kidding. though he rocks!!! and i do love him but in a healthy way!). i'm always wondering what might have been, desiring things, and being so certain that my life could be immensly better with them. and i'm probably right. but! what would my purpose be then? there's a difference between goals and purpose. and while i'm always clambering for things that i think will complete me, i miss the profound gift God has, better than everything else of this world. i won't stop loving things or longing for things in this world and who can? but to live with purpose! gives you FOCUS (what i've come the recognise i require more than mannny other virtues), motivation, and simplifies your life.
so yes. i'm feeling a lot better now and normal again. yay(: i love sajc, or rather, you guys! "curating" the j2s' art pieces was pretty fun mhmm. i'd like to believe that by hanging around them the whole day, the creativity will subconsciously spread to me. hahaha. what was very sad though, was that majority of the people who walked in had no interest whatsoever in art. they just look-seed, laughed and walked out. i'd be all chirpy and go, hi! welcome! if you have any inquiries about art as an a level subject, or would like to know more about the courseworks you are viewing feel free to approach me! and they'd just be like...oh. when i ask if anyone's interested in taking art it's either silence, or a denouncing "i can't draw". they are missing out on an incredible life journey i tell you!!!
in the afternoon the crowd was better i have to say, but in the morning most people just came cause it was part of the tour. that piece i mentioned above is realllllly nice, and most people just completely ignored it cause it's located in this alcove thing. which is odd cause wouldn't most normal people be drawn to that piece first due to curiosity? that's what me domo and ying tong felt anyway. funnily enough later in the day when the j2 himself came to see the stuff, he must have noticed this cause he wrote on the wall in front of his piece, there is an artwork here. hahaha. ah yes! we got to meet miss chan's brother!!! mr chan! he's 16 and from maris stella which shocked everyone cause we didn't know miss chan had such a younger brother. so when we found out everyone kept calling hi miss chan's brother!!!! as a matter of fact two of the j2s like made a public announcement to the visitors there that he was miss chan's brother hahaha. the cute thing is that when you try and talk to him, addressing him as miss chan's brother, his expression is like identical to miss chan's huhhhh? face, so then i'd be like, you look just like miss chan!
okok sorrryyy i'm being boring now. but then again, how can this possibly be more boring than no new posts??? ehhh? gotcha there! i think that's all i have to say for now. i was supposed to write a short story cum song here just for lame entertainment, but looks like the post ended up much longer than i expected. so here is a couplet instead!!!
thee sun thee sea
smell like bar chor mee. (can't spell....sigh!)
choir sucks too. i wish i were in a cca i liked so much i wouldn't care how much time i spent on it. like art or sth. i made the funny mistake of sitting at the choir booth this morning to talk to my friends, then MISS NG came over. and proclaimed! (something along the lines of) "i'm glad to see you're back!" ARGHHHH!!! noooooooooo....so i tried to worm my way out by saying i didn't even think i was going to get promoted, and i needed to spend all my waking hours on art. instead she kinda put on this serious face and said she'll do sth to make sure i'll get promoted. WAHHH. piang ah. she's messing with me again! she's nice sometimes la, but i know she's really trying to tie me up. sigh. even mr tay has been asking where i've been? my conductor who said i could leave if i wanted to? as you can see my life is full of people trying to work reverse psycology on me. and i'm so nice they usually succeed. ha. ha.
now i'm listening to how soon is now by tatu. my favourite angsty song to listnen to when i'm feeling depressed. but today for open house i was curating the j2s coursework in the basement for most of my 9 hours in school. and one of their pieces had quotes as a part of it. pretty funny cool ones. in the style of jenny holtzer's truisms (she did an opening piece for the biennale. cool right!) here's an example (from the j2's piece not jenny holtzer's) "ugly people should be happy. they can't get any worse" hoooooo. so let's all be happy! some others are really true. like sth about how love doesn't die naturally, but it's cause we don't know how to replenish it's source. i soooo agree with that. it's the cause of a million failed marriages. well there was this other quote that didn't make me feel very happy, but it's true too and that's why although i feel like being sorely depressed right now i'm trying not to.
cause according to the quote, no one really cares. and why should they? no one can truely understand what anyone else goes through. so be happy. it's better for your life. when i was distressed by cca trauma this morning i told myself that i shouldn't. i need to change my mindset cause i'm only doing myself and others a disservice by being so whiney and negative. my WHOLE church is doing bible studies on the book a purpose driven life, and i realised how important it is to fill that hole in your heart. it makes living everyday so much easier. why should i complain about all these things when i have a purpose in God and i should live my life the way He wants me to? my HUGE problem is i'm so dreamy. always falling in love with this and that. music, art, johhny depp(haha kidding. though he rocks!!! and i do love him but in a healthy way!). i'm always wondering what might have been, desiring things, and being so certain that my life could be immensly better with them. and i'm probably right. but! what would my purpose be then? there's a difference between goals and purpose. and while i'm always clambering for things that i think will complete me, i miss the profound gift God has, better than everything else of this world. i won't stop loving things or longing for things in this world and who can? but to live with purpose! gives you FOCUS (what i've come the recognise i require more than mannny other virtues), motivation, and simplifies your life.
so yes. i'm feeling a lot better now and normal again. yay(: i love sajc, or rather, you guys! "curating" the j2s' art pieces was pretty fun mhmm. i'd like to believe that by hanging around them the whole day, the creativity will subconsciously spread to me. hahaha. what was very sad though, was that majority of the people who walked in had no interest whatsoever in art. they just look-seed, laughed and walked out. i'd be all chirpy and go, hi! welcome! if you have any inquiries about art as an a level subject, or would like to know more about the courseworks you are viewing feel free to approach me! and they'd just be like...oh. when i ask if anyone's interested in taking art it's either silence, or a denouncing "i can't draw". they are missing out on an incredible life journey i tell you!!!
in the afternoon the crowd was better i have to say, but in the morning most people just came cause it was part of the tour. that piece i mentioned above is realllllly nice, and most people just completely ignored it cause it's located in this alcove thing. which is odd cause wouldn't most normal people be drawn to that piece first due to curiosity? that's what me domo and ying tong felt anyway. funnily enough later in the day when the j2 himself came to see the stuff, he must have noticed this cause he wrote on the wall in front of his piece, there is an artwork here. hahaha. ah yes! we got to meet miss chan's brother!!! mr chan! he's 16 and from maris stella which shocked everyone cause we didn't know miss chan had such a younger brother. so when we found out everyone kept calling hi miss chan's brother!!!! as a matter of fact two of the j2s like made a public announcement to the visitors there that he was miss chan's brother hahaha. the cute thing is that when you try and talk to him, addressing him as miss chan's brother, his expression is like identical to miss chan's huhhhh? face, so then i'd be like, you look just like miss chan!
okok sorrryyy i'm being boring now. but then again, how can this possibly be more boring than no new posts??? ehhh? gotcha there! i think that's all i have to say for now. i was supposed to write a short story cum song here just for lame entertainment, but looks like the post ended up much longer than i expected. so here is a couplet instead!!!
thee sun thee sea
smell like bar chor mee. (can't spell....sigh!)
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